I Love Saturdays!

So yes, I love Saturdays, even though I don't have a job anymore. It seems as though I can get Bugz to do more things with me on Saturdays. Today was no exception. 

Thanks to Layna fussing all night, we were up early. Got to the Manchester farmer's market by 6:15am. Got some sweet potatoes, onions, radishes, sugar snap peas, and some pineapple zuchinni bread. Yum! We headed home after about 45 minutes, visited Shelia while we were there, then came home to rest.

We got a later start in the afternoon, but we ended up going to Mt. Juliet. Why did we go there?

Remember I am a bargain queen, and I got quite a few today!

We met this guy and I bought a color/night vision/sound/night light monitor from him for $25! Works perfectly!

From there we went to HomeGoods and TJ Max, which were both in the same store. We walked around both stores and I was not impressed in either one, especially for Layna's clothes. She started getting fussy, and we found this pink monkey toy that she liked. Got it for $5.50 + tax. When I got home I looked it up and I got a great deal on it!

http://tomy.com/missy-monkey

Next up was Old Navy. Our main goal was to look at the Buy One Get One Half Off Shorts for Bugz. They were way too expensive, so we looked at Layna's stuff. I ended up getting her a cute pink spaghetti strap romper and some old school Jellies. Ended up spending less than $10! 

Last stop was at Lifeway Christian Bookstore. I knew I couldn't spend a lot, so I bypassed all the VeggieTales movies I want to get for Layna and all the home decorations I would have loved to have. I browsed through the Bibles and came across one that intrigued me. I had never heard of the version, and I really like reading and comparing different versions. I found a copy on sale for $5! Regular price was $19.99!

From there it was a flop. We ate at Steak and Shake and they messed up our order. And it made me nauseous. Bugz sliced his finger open playing with my cup holder in the car. Layna has been fussy all day and last night. She just fell asleep (7:30pm) and Bugz is asleep too. I'm debating watching Hitler, but as little sleep as I got last night, I'm about ready to crash too.

Bugz did mention something today that made me think of a new challenge. He said Layna didn't need anymore clothes, she would never wear all she has now. Challenge accepted! Tomorrow is a new month, and she is going to wear every outfit she has (that fits now) at least once, and I'm gonna take pictures! This should be fun! I won't post them every day, maybe once a week do a collage. Now to dig through her closet.......

Oh, and see the mat behind her Jellies? Its a play and kick with the piano at the feet. Brand new are $40 at Walmart. I got this one for $20 and it is in almost perfect condition! I am the bargain queen! 

Strange Happenings and Dreams

For some reason the last few days I have been extremely exhausted. I have no energy whatsoever. Today I almost fell asleep driving to work, and I feel like I could fall asleep now.

I know part of it is depression. I miss being with Layna, and the weekends are so hard for me because I have to give her up. I know I'm also upset about not getting to keep this job. I mean, I want to stay closer to home, and not working will mean that I'll get to spend my days with Layna, which is good. The problem is #1) Money #2) Am I not good enough that they didn't want to keep me? Am I that horrible? Is it because I didn't go to college? Did they call a certain someone to get a reference and get a bad one because she hates me? All of this is eating away at my mind and driving me nuts.

Last night I wasn't feeling so well. My stomach got upset after we ate at Burger King, and I felt nauseous. I had already taken Layna to the bedroom and put her in her pack and play so she could sleep, so I told Bugz I was going to go lay down. I put the heating pad on medium heat and laid it under my lower back, which also hurts when I get nauseous. I must have passed out. When I woke up, Bugz was in bed, and I was still on my back....and Layna was laying on my chest. I have no remembrance of picking her up and laying her there. I have no remembrance of Bugz coming to bed. Was I that tired that I picked her up and put her in bed with me without knowing?

That was enough there to worry me, but then I started having dreams. I first dreamed that we were at Grammy Sue's, but it wasn't her real house.....kind of like it was, but it wasn't. She had gone to the bedroom to take a nap (she doesn't do that, she sleeps on the sofa) and we were going through a big walk in closet. She had about 20 pairs of shoes in the bottom of the closet, and I was going to go through them and get rid of them. She wakes up and comes in there and I ask her to go through them so that we can get rid of some of them. She has a fit, no one is going to get rid of her shoes. She wants to keep them all. That's all I really remember about that part of the dream.

In another dream, there was a house on a hill with woods behind it. It was abandoned. There wasn't a definite story, whether the owners died or disappeared. At one point it was that they had died, and that our neighbor Scott knew them. We decided to go into the house and see what was left behind. Everything was as they had left it, nothing disturbed, as if they would come back home that evening. From the things they had in the house, they had both a boy and a girl. They had lots of almost brand new baby girl things, and I started gathering some of the things together to bring home with me, Scott had said it was ok. He said they would want the stuff to go to someone that needed it. We looked through more things and I came across a camera that I have been wanting. Then, over in the corner, I saw a stereo behind some other things. It was just like the old stereo that I have, that my Grammy gave me back in the early 90's, a floor model. It had an extra, larger set of speakers to go with it. I remember going back to wherever it was that we lived and telling Bugz that they had the stereo/speakers but they were too big for me to bring back with me. 

At one point, this older couple came up and tried to pass themselves off as the missing couple that owned the house. The cops were there and ran their drivers licenses and said that they were Impostors and not to let them have anything. They got in their vehicle and left. That's about all I remember of that one, too. 

What in the world is up with the strange dreams and the whole Layna deal? No wonder I am so tired this morning! I am sure I did not sleep well with her laying on me, and after we got up at 2am for a bottle, she was fussy and I had to keep her in bed with me again. I knew I wouldn't roll over and drop her or anything like that, but after picking her up without knowing it, I was freaking out and just kind of half slept after that. 

I am slowly waking up though. I am getting extremely pissed at the USPS. I have a tracking number that says my package had been delivered on the 27th at 10:18am. If was not delivered that day, nor was it delivered today. I have repeatedly called the post office this morning only to have it ring 20 times with no answer before I hang up. So now not only do they put our mail in the wrong boxes, but they say they've delivered something when they haven't. I'm about to leave a cherry bomb in the box for the idiot! If I could afford it, I would get a PO Box, but they would probably just screw that up too. 

Today is just not my day so far. And with my job ending this Friday, its just going to get worse instead of better. Say a little prayer for me. 

Memorial Day Fun

I am a bit behind posting about Memorial Day. It was such a fun, busy, tiring day. We got up early and headed to the Majors for an all day cookout celebration. We helped get the water balloons ready while Papa Billy cooked and Nanny and Holly got the fixings ready in the kitchen.

We had some great food; burgers, dogs, beans, chips, tater salad, and cake leftover from Sunday's birthday celebration. We ate till we were stuffed. Then it was on to the water balloon war.

I did not want to participate. I didn't want to risk the chance of getting hurt (because I am accident prone), so I took pictures. They were so silly! One side didn't want to get too close to the other side. Only one was slightly hurt; a smack to the face with a balloon, but he was ok. Think it smacked his glasses into his face and got his eye. He took off his glasses and plotted revenge. lol

After Bugz's team won, we did the balloon toss. Bugz and I got second place. If he had thrown the last one better we would have gone on a little longer. It was still fun though. The rest of the afternoon/evening was just sitting around visiting. A few got dunked into the water balloon holder, a few chose to get in. 

We finally headed home and ended a great day. Its always great to spend the day with great family and friends!

Christening/Baptism/Confirmation

So, I really don't know what to call it, honestly. I seriously thought it was Christening when children were babies, but our Methodist hymnal says Confirmation, and Pastor Linda called it Baptism.

Whatever it was, it was this morning during church. I was worried she'd be fussy but she did SO good! She smiled during the responsive readings and didn't cry as Pastor Linda poured the water over her head. She just grinned at PL as she spoke, it was so adorable. I almost wish we'd had a video of it.

Her godparents were up there with us and got to participate in the proceedings too. My grandparents were there, and my dad held Layna for the first time! We also got a four generation picture with Grammy Sue and Pop.

We went to Nanny and Papa Billy's for a late lunch and then we went to hear Uncle Randy preach a very good sermon. 

Now its bedtime! Getting up early for a cookout at Nanny and Papa's tomorrow. Good food, good company, and water balloon fights.Fun fun! 

Growing Up.....Kinda

It's funny, when I decided to do frogs for Layna's theme, someone told me she'd not like frogs and I'd have to change everything out.

Well, guess what! Out of all the toys we've tried to give her, she likes monkeys best! She has a little monkey that she will grab for (eventually) and chew on. Yesterday we went to Five Below (or is it Five and Below?) And they had Ty Beanie Babies for $4.99. We showed her a few different ones, but she reacted (smiled) at a little one called Petals. It was a monkey. I decided to get it, and I set it in the car seat with her while we continued shopping. I am looking at stuff on the shelf, turn to look back at Layna, and she has Petals in her hands chewing on her! So adorable! 

We get out to the car and I put her in the car with Petals and we stand outside a moment while Bugz smokes. I turn to look at her and see this:

She's loving her little monkey! So....Little Frogger just might have to be Little Monkey. Haha! 

I had her in this cute little outfit before we left and had to change her before we went out the door because she spit up peaches on it. She loved them, but they came back up. Poor baby. So I go in the closet to find something to change her into. I grab this cute red and white dress and we change and go.

At Hobby Lobby I take her to change her diaper. For some reason I decide to look at her dress.....its a Newborn size! Girl is almost 5 months and wearing Newborns! My pretty little girl. Maybe she'll have a growth spurt one day. If not, I'll have me a petite little monkey. lol

My little monkey is being Christened today. I can't wait. I only pray that she can live a better Godly life than I have.

Random Thoughts

1) I am totally about to fall asleep at the desk. My eyes are heavy. I need more sleep. Drinking hot tea with sugar, you'd think I'd have a sugar rush, but no.

2) We have to go to the funeral home again tonight. Bugz's good buddy's grandpa passed away on my birthday.

3) I had the most messed up dream last night. I dreamed it was Layna's christening. The church was packed, but Bugz's family wasn't there. My grandparents, aunt and uncle, and cousin and her daughter were there. But then there were a LOT of other people I didn't know. The church was so full people were standing along the walls. I was sitting with Ashley and waiting on Bugz to bring Layna to church. When he shows up, she's wearing blue and pink, has blondish brown pigtails, and is walking! He said she had just started it. Then I find out why all the people are there; there's going to be a wedding too! Sister Sally was there, not Pastor Linda. I don't remember at what point I woke up, but that's all I remember. 

4) Have you ever paid attention to people you meet on the road? Have you noticed where their hands are on the steering wheel? Or if they are at all? My 35 minute drive to work has me noticing things like that. 

5) I literally cannot focus on things, that is how tired I am. I am struggling to hold my eyes open. 

6) I wore toe socks with my boots today. Bad idea. I am burning up!

7) After our Farmer's Market trip Saturday, not only do I want to go see more, I want my own garden. 

8) I am also now loving my goat cheese and would love to find other farms/people that make it, to have different varieties to choose from. Google, here I come!

9) I also want my own goats and would love to learn how to make cheese.  And yes, I will milk the goats too. I'm not above that.  ;)  Just might have to get this to wear when I do get my goats.

10) It is 11am and I am still sleepy! I have got to wake up!

11) I have to go to Verizon and get my phone straightened out.

12) I am now getting a bit hungry on top of being sleepy.

13) I am so ready for 5 pm, I miss my little and big baby.

14) I lost my Tenncare insurance because I am working. Do they not care that I am a single mother, and even though I am working, I can't afford health care on my own? I lost the Families First assistance, too. Which means there will be no help for diapers and other essentials that she might need. And when this job ends, beings its temporary, I will have to go up there and start all over again.  :/

15) My back has been hurting lately, I pray that its not kidney stones again.

16) My dizziness has gone away, but have been feeling nauseous lately.

17) I need a job being a paper pusher, or a fact checker, or something that I don't have to interact with people. I work better that way. Give me invoices to match up or key in, put me in a room, and leave me alone. I can do it. People annoy me, and their attitudes get to me too much. I'd rather not be around them.

18) I really wish they'd just hire someone for this position. I am getting tired of answering calls from the people they interviewed, wanting to know if they are still interviewing, if they are still in the mix for the job, have they hired anyone yet, etc etc etc. Seriously, I am tired of it. 

19) If you go into a place of business and there is a window that you have to talk through to interact with the person on the other side, do NOT hang your head in the window, arms over the wall into their space. It is none of your business what is on their desk, what they are doing on their computer, or what they have behind their desk. The wall is there for a reason, stay on your own side. Otherwise you just might get hit with that sliding glass window you see open there.

20) I am also getting tired of those pop-ups that say "Celebrity hotter than spouse". Who cares?? I mean, its nice to see celebs marry normal people, but who's to say they aren't "hot" or attractive or good looking? Just because they don't fit the "Barbie" image doesn't mean they aren't pretty. And you wonder what is wrong with young girls (and even boys) in this day and age.

21) I really miss being at home with Layna. Would love to be holding her right now, teaching her how to use the spoon, making her smile, taking a nap with her. 

22) I hate bidding on things on eBay! (think I mentioned this before, but I really do hate it)

23) I need to start on my minimalist living, now that my cash flow is going to make me be that way whether I want to or not. 

24) I bought bread yesterday for my sandwiches.....and it has milk in it. Lord bless me that it doesn't make me sick for lunch today.

25) My randomness has run dry for the morning.  

Family Weekend Day 2

So I know I am late. Things have been hectic for me these last few days for some reason. There will be two blogs today, this one and one randomness, because I feel random. 

Sunday was day two of the family time weekend. We went to church and had a little visitor sit with us throughout the sermon; little Lexxi. She was playing with Layna, and Layna would smile back at her. It was so cute. We had a great sermon, and we also found out the dates for our VBS next month, just don't know the times yet. 

After church we went next door to the schoolhouse for the England reunion. Can you believe that I left my camera in the car and didn't once take it out? Me, the one that can't go anywhere without a camera! I didn't even take any with my phone! My cousin Brittany took one of Layna with her son Weston, but I never really saw anyone else take any pictures. Its strange how we went from video taping (yes, WAY back when, in the '80s) to taking pictures, to eating and leaving quickly. That just goes to show you how society is changing. Back when, Sundays were for relaxing, spending time with family. Now its another retail day, people having to work, kids having ball games or practices, families always on the run. Its a shame we can't go back to those lazy Sundays.

Speaking of which, we did some running too. Because of our long fun day Saturday, we had to get Grammy Sue's groceries on Sunday. I was a mean person and asked Bugz to help me, so we could get done quicker. We went and got her money and list (and let her hold Layna while she took her bottle), then we headed out to get groceries. 

It was quite funny, Bugz did more shopping than I did! We went to K-Mart and I just wanted to go in quickly and get one thing (which they did not have) and leave. He ended up walking almost every baby isle, then we went to sporting goods, electronics, then on to toys. THEN we left. LOL! Wal-Mart was a little better, especially since they don't have squat to choose from for babies. We got her groceries and headed home, but not before a stop at Sonic, where I got a cotton candy slush with Nerds. Not great, not bad, wouldn't get it again. The peach with the Nerds was better.

By 7pm we were sitting in her living room, groceries put away, and trying to go home. Thanks to Layna getting fussy, we finally got home. I don't even remember what we ate for supper, I was that tired, but I was glad our little family got to spend another day together.